lamesauce and peanut butter

i'm kinda sad, y'all.

i wanted to be a runner.

real real bad.

but i just can't.

after 4 days of it, 

i had some pretty scary incidents.

i knew i shouldn't 

but i just wanted to try.

i was pretty upset about it this weekend

and talked to W about it.

i told him it's sooo hard to 

realize that who i am inside

and who i can physically be 

are completely different 

and it's just so hard for this stubborn girl

to accept.

but guess what.

God doesn't care if i'm a runner.

or a doctor.

or insanely good at hopscotch (which i am).

cuz i'm His.

that's all that matters to Him

and that's all that needs to matter to me.

it's not that easy but

i'm sure gonna work on it.

and keep p90x'in 

to my grave.

;)


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on another note.


i made an awesomesauce 
snack last night.


i got the recipe on this
blog after my own heart


rinse a can of chickpeas.


spread on cookie sheet
{or chickpea sheet i guess}


sprinkle with 
cinnamon, nutmeg and ginger.


bake at 350 for 15-20 minutes.


put in a bowl and stir in
i tsp peanut butter.
{i also used some agave nectar to sweeten it}


eat them.
all of them.
sleep.